What’s all this talk about Ego?

If you haven’t been living under a rock in the last 5 years, you’ve noticed a huge surge of “self help” or “healing” focus in the collective. Many of us are going on deep journeys into our inner world. And wow what a ride that is…

A part of me is super excited about this, I think to myself “YAY” people are reaching that top of the pyramid of self-actualization which must lead to evolution and expansion, right? RIGHT?!

And yet… are we REALLY getting to the root cause of our suffering?

As someone who used to sit for hours in my Grandma’s house reading about so many of these hot topics since I was a little girl (metaphysics, astrology, quantum physics, spirituality, ancient wisdom, healing, etc.). So much of what I read come back to the same principle: We are one. We are Love. And like using a muscle, over 30+ years of practice… it can become easier to embody love over time. Of course there are times it can be very challenging.

Now here’s the silly part. I will admit, I started feeling a bit stagnant. Like a puddle of love, but I will always crave movement. So I wonder, what’s next? What MORE can I do to keep expanding? There’s gotta be more right?

Oh yes, there is always more!!!

On our quest for progress, it is always good to humble ourselves and find others who are embodying even more of what we hope to. There are so many incredible humans I admire. But to feel that pull towards wanting direct mentorship, that has been rare for me. I grew up with a literal embodiment of an Angel (my Gma). The purest heart, the most warm and inviting energy, even Kriyananda called her out to a packed room of his Disciples saying they were in the presence of a living, breathing Angel. I aspire to be more like her.

I say this to preface the source of this passed down wisdom.

Wisdom passed down from the closest human I have met that reminds me of her, his name is Eduardo. And this wisdom is passed down to him from his own mentor.

I had the pleasure of working with Eduardo in Costa Rica, helping him with the most beautiful plant medicine ceremonies. To be in service of someone who is dedicating his entire being to humanity is one of my greatest honors.

Through the years we have created such magic together, so when he shared that he would be creating an online program to share some of the passed down wisdom and practices that helped him become who he is - I was ALL IN.

Yesterday was our first session in The Spiral Journey and PHEW! I am already deep in reflection (hence why I am here sharing this).

I won’t give much away because I truly encourage you to join his next container if he does it again. I hope he does, my goodness could the world use this knowledge right now.

But I wanted to share a couple tidbits that I already feel the deep impact not even 24 hours after learning:

The Spiral Journey discussed The Ego. Its origin, its purpose, its evolution. I won’t get into all that, even though it was eye-opening. But when asking what is the Ego, a simple way to identify is through this comparison:

• The Ego is based on “To HAVE”:

Status, form, recognition, success, power, wealth, appearance, control, image

• The Soul is “To BE”:

Hospitable, condolence, empathetic, integrity, respectful, responsibile, humble, serene, patient, kind

But this part had me really thinking…

“Ego plays out the drama. The ego turns into the intimidator, the victim, the narcissist, the interrogator, or the distant.”

“Ego is drama to attract attention and avoid pain.”

Intimidator - The most active of them, always needs to be right, may be violent. Imposes will upon others

Interrogator - Depressive, manipulator, investigator, sad and negative, always has an answer for everything

Distant - avoid conflict, delay solutions, get isolated

Victim - weakness, poor of mind, wait for help, world is after me

Narcissism - Mix of all of that so deeply identified in them they have no awareness

I’d like to call these the personalities of the ego. I’m not sure about you, but reading those felt like flipping through a deck of memories that sends a chill down the spine. Oh how the Ego causes soooo much suffering. So many beautiful connections killed by this gang of nuisances. So much pain, and for what? To feed the monster that is The Ego. The Ego is never satisfied, it always wants more, more, more!

So much happening in the collective has the root cause of an out of control ego. Just as Colonization is the symptom of the root cause of The Ego.

And what stood out to me the most is the DRAMA. We freaking love drama. Lord knows, I love a good plot twist, but not one that leaves humans worse off than before. That doesn’t sound fun.

So many inner children throwing temper tantrums because our actual needs aren’t being met.

I am not here to shame Ego, as it can be balanced as I am sure we all have embodied some or all of these aspects at some point and probably will again. If we didn’t have Ego, how would be able to recognize the sweetness of love after all?

Our current collective shows that the scale is being tipped towards the Ego, so the questions are…

• Do we realize the way our Ego is impacting our own lives? Others’ lives?

• Can we reflect back on the ways our ego caused damage and learn from it?

• Is there something we can do to repair the damage our egos caused?

• How can we, as individuals, become more aware in the future to help move the needle further away from Ego, and closer to LOVE?

• What are the antidote ACTIONS to diffuse The Ego that loves to bomb us and everyone else emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually?

I have a few ideas… but I’ll leave that for you to ponder.

Until then,

Love y’all. Mean it.